Post by Dawny on Jul 23, 2007 1:37:16 GMT -5
I felt led to share some of my own experiences on the internet to share with people who it can be just as addictive and even dangerous as any drug you could ingest or inject.
I have been online since 1996, which also just happens to be the year I started church, got baptised in Jesus name and got the Holy Ghost.
I started out on America Online. I had a little circle of very nice, Christian people who were always a joy to be around online. We even got together in summer of 1998 and met in GA. That first meeting showed me how deceitful and exagerative people can truly be about themselves online when compared to "real life." But it also showed me a couple of REAL people who were exactly what they said they were and were a blessing to me.
About the time we met...I started letting my walk in Christ slip severely. I started feeling so utterly lonely, because I was not having any kind of relationship with the Lord. I let my prayer life become non existent...I stopped reading the Word...and my spirit...starved for something ...ANYTHING to nourish it...sought out very unwholesome things and people online. I started actually meeting people in sexually explicit chat rooms. I would cry my eyes out every night after I was done on computer. I did not see that this was tearing my heart apart. I would either miss work or be late. Then I branched out into actually meeting men offline..and it was not to just talk. (No further details needed.)
My spirit got so consumed with this lustful attitude that I could not come home without getting online and getting that "fix."
It was almost a double fix...of lustfulness and online addiction intertwining.
I was putting myself in very dangerous and unpredictable situations and I was also not socializing with anyone except the men I was meeting from the computer. I moved to MI because I thought I was "in love" with a much older man, but he ended up married. He had been keeping a separate apartment to "play."
I came back and never looked back to that fornicative lifestyle that I allowed myself to be caught up in.
Please...do NOT forsake your offline time with people or your time with the Lord for your internet time. When other things take the place of Godly things....you need to recheck your priorities.
I hope that you realize this took alot of courage to tell this story...but I felt led to show you that the Lord is far more important than ANYTHING ELSE. I hope this helped even just one person!!!
I have been online since 1996, which also just happens to be the year I started church, got baptised in Jesus name and got the Holy Ghost.
I started out on America Online. I had a little circle of very nice, Christian people who were always a joy to be around online. We even got together in summer of 1998 and met in GA. That first meeting showed me how deceitful and exagerative people can truly be about themselves online when compared to "real life." But it also showed me a couple of REAL people who were exactly what they said they were and were a blessing to me.
About the time we met...I started letting my walk in Christ slip severely. I started feeling so utterly lonely, because I was not having any kind of relationship with the Lord. I let my prayer life become non existent...I stopped reading the Word...and my spirit...starved for something ...ANYTHING to nourish it...sought out very unwholesome things and people online. I started actually meeting people in sexually explicit chat rooms. I would cry my eyes out every night after I was done on computer. I did not see that this was tearing my heart apart. I would either miss work or be late. Then I branched out into actually meeting men offline..and it was not to just talk. (No further details needed.)
My spirit got so consumed with this lustful attitude that I could not come home without getting online and getting that "fix."
It was almost a double fix...of lustfulness and online addiction intertwining.
I was putting myself in very dangerous and unpredictable situations and I was also not socializing with anyone except the men I was meeting from the computer. I moved to MI because I thought I was "in love" with a much older man, but he ended up married. He had been keeping a separate apartment to "play."
I came back and never looked back to that fornicative lifestyle that I allowed myself to be caught up in.
Please...do NOT forsake your offline time with people or your time with the Lord for your internet time. When other things take the place of Godly things....you need to recheck your priorities.
I hope that you realize this took alot of courage to tell this story...but I felt led to show you that the Lord is far more important than ANYTHING ELSE. I hope this helped even just one person!!!